If you’ve read my previous post with the same title, you probably already know what this post is about. Yesterday, I didn’t watch House as I had planned. I felt that i would have to wait too long for the new episode (which will be available only on Monday), so gonna see this episode little by little and drag it out till Saturday at least :P. Yeah, I am that crazy about House.
Anyway, today’s post is not about House. This amazing thing happened to me early morning. I was on my way to office in my office bus just like every other weekday. This really heavy girl came and sat next to me so the ride wasn’t that comfortable and I couldn’t fall asleep for the whole 2hr journey. My only pastime throughout was looking out through the window. And that’s when I saw the most beautiful thing.. In fact, I wasn’t even looking. I was just staring at the sun as if in a daze. The sun was hidden behind some clouds and I could see less than a quarter peeking out.
And then, it was as if he just knew. He knew I had been staring at him for quite some time, and he came out from behind the clouds and smiled at me. I know it probably sounds crazy, but he did. He did come out and he smiled. AT ME! It was just so beautiful. And then he went to hide behind some other clouds. All this happened in a matter of seconds. But it really did happen.
I am probably going mad. But that was an amazing feeling. It was as if I never used to notice there was a sun till today. And today, he said Hi to me! 🙂 Wow! That just made my whole day. I want to remember this feeling always.
One of my very good friends told me today that I think too much. She wants me to stop thinking and worrying so much about the future and start living in the present. I am gonna try from today to make a list of things that make me happy each day, even if they are just little things.
Today, I guess I could be happy about the fact that my bus reached my place earlier than usual, saving me half an hour. But is this something to be happy about? Or is it something I should be thankful for? I know i reached half hour early, but what difference did it make to me? That I got to browse an extra half hour on the internet or that I got to spend an extra half hour alone in my room? Hmm… No. I don’t think this makes me happy.
Fine, lets find something else to be happy about. The dinner was good today. I had 4 idlys and sambhar. Should i be happy for this or grateful to God? Umm… I guess that is a NO again.
Alright moving on. I got it!! I am happy that i got to see another new episode of Grey’s Anatomy Season 7 🙂 Yes! Watching Grey’s Anatomy makes me happy. And tomorrow i will get to watch an episode of House M.D 😀 Yay!
Alright, so looks like its gonna be tough finding little things to be happy about. But I am gonna try my best to think of what made me happy before i close my eyes for the day.
Lets see for how long this self-therapy works 🙂
P.S: I am basically a cynical+critical+pessimistic person. Being falsely perky doesn’t really look good on me. This post is a sincere effort on my part to try to be happy with what I have. I am gonna try my best not to worry about the future. Because truth be told, my future isn’t that bright. And if I can’t be happy now… who knows if I will ever be happy! Might as well start looking for reasons to be happy now.. than dying sad.